I am having one of those “moments” again-this time I know why. I don’t believe I have shared much information regarding my business start up venture, Ella Eris Beauty cosmetics line. I have been putting my heart and soul into this project since last year. I have put money into the labeling, the logo, the business registration, testing product, all out of my own pocket to get to the point I am at today…which is trying to fund the purchase of the product I need to get my business off the ground.
It is very disheartening to work so hard for your dreams to come true and not be able to make them happen. I am trying my best to not get discouraged but it is very difficult.
I know that cosmetics and the beauty industry is my “calling” in life. I have been indirectly involved with the beauty community since YouTube gurus took over in 2011. I have become a seasoned expert in the art of quality makeup at an affordable price. Give me ANY kind of makeup and I will make it work. In those early days when I couldn’t afford much other than an LA Colors eye shadow palette from Dollar Tree, I made it work, and let me tell you, I worked that shit out. I have the eye to look at a product, a makeup brush, an eye shadow palette and tell you if its going to be good or not without even swatching it. This is where quality products at affordable prices come in, my principal belief when creating my business-you don’t need a lot of money to look and feel beautiful. I am looking to incorporate not only cosmetics but skin care as well to add diversity to what my brand has to offer. Currently, I am at a stand still…
I feel as though people around me do not get my vision or they do not hear the sincerity in my voice when I say “I really want this, I can do this, I can make it work!” This is where that “disconnect” with others comes into play. Maybe its my geographical area that causes people to be so close minded. You see there are very limited opportunities in the Detroit, MI area, and I DO NOT want to hear “you make your own opportunities.” Although, that may be true, it is a lot harder than anyone may think. The thought process in this area is you either go work for the “big three” or get a medical job and work in the medical field. Those are your only sure fire ways to even make enough to support yourself and when I mean “enough” it means you are scraping by by the seat of your pants.
I am at a standstill guys, and I don’t know where to go from here. Is this just not the right time in my life? Am I undeserving of doing what I want to do? Is someone just sending bad karma my way? What the fuck is it?! Because I am trying so God damn hard to be upbeat and positive and to show the haters the middle finger, but it is just not working out in my favor.
What is a person to do?! All I want is success, to do what I dream of doing and to help others, how do I get past this?!
Well, as I rack my brain a bit more, I thank you for the rant session. If anyone has any suggestions I am open to hear them.